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gettin kicked outta my house...if you need me, my cell is 954-245-9848....bye.
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| Time to kill |
[14 Jan 2005|01:17pm] |
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I'm becoming a real dick lately. I'm so exhausted from everything. School..work..I really think if I dont quit my job soon someones going to get hurt badly. I've been working 2 weeks without a break tomorrow. I go straight from school to work. Last night I missed the last city bus so I got home pretty late. I'm so sick of this shit. I've been getting urges to kill people at my work..several times a night. I've almost killed 2 co-workers, and I've bitched out so many customers and workers. I'm also starting to bring it into my school life..I'm taking out my stress on everyone, including myself. I need a few days to just vent, relax, let out some steam. I can't wait untill sunday..I just hope I can make it two more nights...
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[12 Jan 2005|01:47am] |
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Wow..tonight was the first night I had to take the city bus home..just gettin settled in. I got off the bus early because I felt like takin a walk, but I ended up getting lost. :( Then my cellphone died, and I had a crackhead following me for about 45 minutes. Lucky I had some trees with me so it was a somewhat ok time..no, it just sucked. I'm tired and was gettin worried I wouldnt find my way home..such a loser x.x
Ok, time for me to go try to get some sleep now cause school tomorrow, then work again..ugh, I hate being me :(
P.S. I like rusty spoons.
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| Yay |
[04 Jan 2005|11:22am] |
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Incubus Mix |
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I feel good...i stayed up all night tossing and turning in bed..so at 5am i got up and cleaned my room..now its all pretty-like <3 i love when my rooms empty. i also did all the dishes before my dad woke up...i was really bored x.x i've been helpin my dad with a lot of shit too since he woke up, settin up our old dining room table, moving big tool crates things around, movin couches, AC's, a dishwasher...lol. i thought he was gonna work today tho which is a bummer :( now i have to wait to finish off my quarter and quit..i wanna just get it over with.
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| Life is hell |
[04 Jan 2005|01:38am] |
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Ok..where to start. I have gone through a lot of shit lately. I started out getting a speeding ticket for going 43 in a 15...hm..expensive little fucker. The cop was pretty cool about it tho..my first ticket so i was worried :( My school has threatened to kick me out...dad wants to kick me out of my house..i gotta new job, no more mcdonalds..woot. i've had the new job for 3 monthes or so..i've already stabbed someone with a pizza cutter, almost killed another person with a knife, cursed out 2 of my managers, and gotten a raise. that's kinda strange but i'm not complainin. um..love life still sucks, lots of problems...i think girls get off to teasing me or some shit. i've also gotten in an accident and totalled my car just recently..heh, go figure. yet another ticket. and now someones claiming they got hurt so they're trying to sue..i owe a lot of money and am seriously thinking about getting this shit settled and moving away, i just need to find a place to go. :( i'm really thinkin of moving to NC, i know a few people there that would be willing to help me out. i took 7 aderols today before work thinkin it was gonna be busy but it was soooo slow so i was all hyped up for nothing. i'm also thinking about quittin drugs all together..i have a quarter here with me. i think i'm gonna blaze it all up and quit. christmas sucked, new years sucked, every holiday sucked..my birthdays in a month, hope that doesnt suck too but it probably will. I've become addicted to an animation series called Salad Fingers http://www.fat-pie.com/flash.htm
"I like it when the red water comes out"
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| Sucker |
[01 Dec 2004|11:14pm] |
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Fuck You All |
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Update.
School sucks, work sucks, life sucks, people suck, you suck.
End of update.
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| Big quiz..gr.owl. |
[22 Sep 2004|01:43pm] |
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**
1. name: Robert
2. single or taken: Single
3. sex: Male
4. bday: February 6th
5. sign: Aquarius
6. siblings: Are a pain in the ass
7. hair color: Brown
8. eye color: brown
9. height: 5'11"
r e l a t i o n s h i p s
1. who are your best friends?: um..Brittney.
2. do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend?: No
f a s h i o n | s t u f f
1. where is your favorite place to shop?: I dont
s p e c i f i c s
1. do you do drugs?: Sometimes
2. what kind of shampoo do you use?: whatever my dad gets me? lol
3. what are you most scared of?: er..still trying to figure that out.
4. what are you listening to right now?: The Rocket Summer - That's So You
5. who is the last person that called you?: Brittney
6. where do you want to get married?: No clue
7. how many buddies are online right now?: 2..both are away..not like we talk anyway.
8. what would you change about yourself?: Everything
F A V O R I T E S
1. color: Sky blue
2. food: not sure.
3. boys names: Dont have a favorite
4. girls names: Kitrina or Katie
5. subjects in school: All suck ass.
6. animals: Squirells
h a v e | y o u | e v e r
1. given anyone a bath?: Myself
2. smoked?: Yes
3. bungee jumped?: No
4. made yourself throw up?: Yes
5. skinny dipped?: Yes
6: ever been in love?: No?
7. made yourself cry to get out of trouble?: No
8. pictured your crush naked?: No
9. actually seen your crush naked?: No
11. lied: Yes.
12. fallen for your best friend? No
13. been rejected?: Yes
14. rejected someone?: Hah..try never been able to?
15. used someone?: Not that I know of
16. done something you regret?: Being a failure with life..
c u r r e n t
clothes: Black shorts and shirt, green boxers, and a white belt.
make-up: No thanks.
annoyance: People that lie to my face or use me..
smell: um..you?
favorite groups: The Rocket Summer and Matthew Good Band(Thank you Tara) <3
desktop picture: Just a black screen.
book youre reading: I dont.
cd in player: Incubus - S.C.I.E.N.C.E.
dvd in player: None
l a s t | p e r s o n
you touched: Brittney
hugged: Brittney
you imed: Not sure.
you yelled at: Not sure.
you kissed: Thats my business
a r e | y o u
understanding: Am I?
open-minded: I like to try new things..
arrogant: Probably.
insecure: Very.
interesting: Never
random: Not really.
hungry: Barely ever.
smart: HAH! I wish...
hard working: Yes.
organized: Not really..enough to get by tho.
healthy: Could be a lot healthier.
shy: Very
difficult: Probably.
attractive: No.
bored easily: Easily or instictively? Yes.
responsible: Yes
obsessed: Not till recently? I dunno...
sad: A lot
happy: Rarely
hyper: Nope
trusting: Very
talkative: No
legal: I am the law...deal with it bitch.
w h o | d o | y o u | w a n n a
kill: Whoever made this survey.
slap: My old manager.
talk to offline: Right now..I'd rather be alone.
talk to online: Look up..loser.
r a n d o m
in the morning i am: Easilly aggitated?
all you need is: Yourself..
love is: I'm not the person to ask that.
i dream about: I dont.
sexual orientation: Um...female..preferably white.
w h i c h | i s | b e t t e r
coke or pepsi: Pepsi.
flowers or candy: Flowers.
tall or short?: Short.
o p p o s i t e | s e x
what do you notice first: Depends on the angle I see the person at...dur.
last person you slow danced with: Nobody..
worst question to ask: Theres a lot of retarded questions..just...think before you ask.
makes you laugh the most: I dont laugh much..but Brittney.
makes you smile: Brittney, my mom, and my sister Kitten.
gives you a funny feeling when you see him/her: Satan
who do you have a crush on: Brittney
d o | y o u | e v e r
sit on the internet all night waiting for that someone special to im you?: Not really
save conversations: I've only saved like 5.
wish you were a member of the opposite sex?: Sometimes..
wish you were younger: Yes..I wanna start my life over from birth..maybe I wont fuck up..
cried because someone said something to you?: Yes..
N u m b e r
of times i have had my heart broken: Well...Lets skip this one.
of hearts i have broken: None
of guys ive kissed: Zero
of girls ive kissed: One
of tight friends: What about the loose ones?
of cds i own: No clue
of scars on my body: Come count them.
of things that i regret: 1...trusting people so easily..
y o u r | t h o u g h t s
I know: That this is a long fuckin survey..
I want: Someone to hold..
I have: Things.
I wish: I died at birth.
I hate: Liars, thieves, and users.
I fear: Nothing.
I hear: The Rocket Summer - What We Hate We Make
I search: I don't..
I wonder: Why I am how I am.
I regret: um...i think i just answered this but trusting people eaily?
I love: Squirells <3
I believe: That Squirells are the sexiest things alive..
F i n a l | q u e s t i o n s
1. do you like fillings these out?: No
2. how many people are you sending this to?: None
3. who will send it back?: Well..if I'm not sending it to anyone...dur.
4. least likely to send it back?: wtf is that supposed to mean?
5. gold or silver: Silver.
6. what was the last film you saw at the movies?: Er..lemme think here.....I honestly cant remember..and it's hurting my head thinking of it so..yea.
7. favorite cartoon/anime?: Cowboy Bebop
8. what did you have for breakfast this morning?: What is this breakfast you speak of?
10. who would you love being locked in a room with?: Heh..how long?
11. could you live without your computer? Yes..I've done it a lot. It's called getting grounded..and it'll probably happen again soon.
12. would you color your hair?: I have. Would I again? Yes.
13. could you ever get off the computer?: Um..DUR
14. habla espanol?: Si! Well..no..I only know a little...but..do you speak ENGLISH?!?! We're in America y'know.
15. how many people are on your buddy list?: 17...but 8 I dunno...I just play a game called Counter-Strike with them somtimes.
17. like watching sunrises or sunsets?: Yes..a lot.
18. what hurts the most?: Um..Having someone inject lead into your blood system? I dunno...there's a lot of things I've never felt..
19. best words ever?: Gr.Owl.
Someone told me a little bunni owes me big time for this..lol. x.x
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[12 Sep 2004|11:09pm] |
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hmm..i was beginning to enjoy sleeping..shoulda known it couldnt last long. well, i havnt slept in 5 days. after the third day i forgot i was awake..yea. now i'm totally blank. maybe i'll get bored from the teachers and fall asleep...speaking of which, i gotta start goin to class..and doin my work. i either have to stop struggling with school or fucking drop out. oh! brittney's finally back! yay. missed her a lot..also get my lisence tuesday. w00t. anyway, today i was with my mom a lot. went and applied for a few jobs, fixed her comp, went to dairy queen..mmm. lol. also had to help my dad with some court case bullshit that's been goin on for like 6 monthes...he finally has to appear in court..or so it says. i'm so sick of people..and school..and work..it's time to just let go.
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| I won and you know it |
[11 Sep 2004|02:36pm] |
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I'm all alone..and completely bored..i need some company :(
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| the good life |
[09 Sep 2004|08:28pm] |
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Hmm...Lately this girl from school's been growing on me. She's helped me realize things I never could have known about me..helped my confidence, just made me feel like a better person over all. And now that I really like her a lot..I find out she was engaged. I'm sick of this shit. Nothing ever works out for me. I tried to be nice to her about it as good as I could..just hope she doesnt think I'm a dipshit or anything. Just yesterday her fiance came back from boot camp and broke it off with her..no matter how bad this sounds..I felt relieved at first. But now i feel really bad..she's a very good person and I dont want to see her hurt. I just hope her ex realizes what he had and gets some sense knocked into him..she's the sweetest, kindest person I've met..and I just hope everything turns out okay for her. I'm just gonna work on loosing my feelings for her..try to stick with just friends..heh. Oh well..guess I should keep looking..or not. It just sucks..I thought I had something really great. I mean I still have her as a friend, but it isnt the same. I'm just grateful she opened up to me..nobody has ever treated me like an actual person except her.
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| Made In China |
[11 Jul 2004|03:57pm] |
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I'm so pathetic. I broke down at work today and just kept zoning out. People kept asking "Aww, whats wrong? Why are you crying? Something wrong?" blah blah blah.. My managers kept yellin at me and I didnt even know untill they were like right next to me..I'm gonna quit this week..fuck that two week notice bullshit.
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| I'm such a pain.. |
[11 Jul 2004|02:15am] |
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Tonight was the worst night ever...I just hope it benefits the people around me..I'm so sorry.
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| fuck the world with a stick |
[08 Jul 2004|04:44am] |
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I'm down with the bitches and hoes...just beat the dogs with gardening tools..its fun.
While I'm here..I might as well write some. I havnt been paying attention to the ones who need it lately..:( Been too busy playin CS. Now that I have DSL I can actually get some kills. Joined a shitty ass clan..so..as of now, I quit. And I heard 1.5 is goin down soon..I hate 1.6 >:( lkasgadfhj..I've had 4 popups since I started this entry..time to fuck somethin up.
Work fuckin sucks..I swear if I dont quit soon I'm gonna beat the hell out of someone there with a spatula..x.x lol. All my managers are bitches..and when I bitch back they get an attitude..I almost slapped the shit out of one Tuesday but..I just hit this big metal tray instead..and she bitched about that..dumn cunt.
My sisters startin cheerleading again..dunno whats goin on there. All last season she wanted me to go with her..and it was a chance for me to drive so I didnt turn it down..but..I just got fucked over there..I'm not used to the attention..so many cheerleaders hittin on me at once..I'm afraid if I go back I might hurt a girl.
I'm tired of being alone...maybe I should get a social life...not like it's gonna just come to me..everyone sucks anyway..I hate you all..
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| Loser |
[27 Jun 2004|08:01pm] |
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Apathy, well I can say your lucky, in some ways.
You see Apathy is no emotion, basically you
don't care. But that does not make you a bad
person. Some of my friends are apathetic and I
love them, but it wouldn't hurt to care a
little more. Trust me life hurts, most people
who are apathetic do it cause they were hurt.
But don't worry, life is pain, its also
pleasure. Good luck. (please vote)
What Emotion Dominates you?
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| Bye |
[15 Jun 2004|01:40am] |
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Refused - Lets Go Crazy |
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Ok..Livejournal is so gay..I quit, later..
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| meh |
[03 Jun 2004|01:48pm] |
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1. Go into your LJ's calendar.
2. Find your 22nd post (or closest to).
3. Find the last sentence.
4. Post the text of the sentence into your blog along with these instructions.
[26 Apr 2004|09:40pm]
"I'm such a loser. "
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| Happy Tara? |
[18 May 2004|02:52pm] |
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Cats ;)I'm a kitty cat, and I dance dance dance and I dance dance dance.
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